Feel so so so miserable...

Lately i can never find a comfy position...be it sitting on the sofa...or lying on the bed...my back is always aching...and even bathing is a chore for me...though hubby is so sweet and offered to shower me...but...i feel so unattractive nw...

Esp last nite...felt a sharp pain all over my lower abs...as if baby is pushing my muscles outwards with all his strength...at first i tot it was a crampy feeling...really scared the shit outta me...
Baby cant be ready to be born nw...! im jus tinking too much...

Always have dreams that baby is born already...n caring for baby dun seems as difficult as i tot it would be...well...im dreaming...i know...bt still i'm looking forward to the transition period of me from a lazy, childish and sloppy person to a dilligent and responsible mother...
At the same time...i hope i can still play the role of a wife to my dearest man...bt well...he'll understand...afterall...baby is the fruit of our love....(silly smile~~~)

Early Morning Blog...

Yawnz...~~~ :o
Slept @ 3 AM last nite...tiz morning kena woken up by a call from my auto insurance agent @ 7.30 AM...sickening...now cant get back to sleep liao coz my tummy growling though i AM sleepy...

Anyway i'm in a good mood...so i can do away with some sleep...
Jus read an email from my Mummy...sent an hr ago...she has confirmed that she will be coming to visit me during my confinement month...with another fren too...Thank GOD for them! I oli ask for help...He gives me helpx2 ! With 2 extra pair of helping hands, i'm sure i can pull through the first few weeks with baby around and restore my own health...
This is the power of prayer...with FAITH...GOD ALWAYS exceeds our expectations...yet we ALWAYS fail to meet HIS...but HE still LOVES us...so we should NEVER STOP trusting...

Though my mum and i were not always on the close end of the relationship...though we do not communicate as often and as well as i hope we can...but after all...she is my mum...who also went thru wat im going thru nw to have me...so i guess ONLY she is willing to put down everything on her hands now and travel so far jus to be with me during the most important time of my life...its really touching to feel her great motherly love for me...which i always tink its never there...but jus becoz she dun show it...does not mean she dun feel dat way for me...
I think i'm jus being shelfish...coz i also do not show my love for her too...and yet have expectations of her...now that i'm going to be a mother too, i finally understand my own mother...n how it has not been easy for her ALL these years...afterall when she had me, it was her first time as a mother...how well u tink she can perform?!

Now i also have to juggle the roles of a daughter...a wife...a mother...a daughter-in-law...a granddaughter...a niece...an older sister...its really not easy to perform all roles well...So i continuously seek GOD's guidance and wisdom...hoping i can perform better than my own mum...

I can proudly and confidently say i have a better husband than my mum...n I'm really glad and contented that i have such a good husband...he takes care of me and always put me before himself...always leave the good food to me and cant bear to eat them himself...how many man out there are willing to cook everyday for their wife who is not working and staying hm? He also never force me to learn unlike my past ex bfs...or rather when i want him to teach me the roles, he jus shush me away say " u learn for wat?! wait u scald and cut urself...i'm more busy eh..."
well...it actually sounds romantic to me though...coz i know he has my interests at heart...he knows i hate handling raw foods and standing in front of the fire...

I wish there is a way to tell him how much i appreciate him...how much i love him...
how lucky i feel...though there are times we quarrel, bt those were constructive...it jus made us understand each other better...

Cold and Boring Day... ~~~

Woke up tiz morning...seeing no sun and dark skies...makes me feel so gloomy...
Worst still...had a bad back ache thru out the nite...cant sleep well...sickening hubby...sleep like PIG! cant even wake him up to massage for me...luckily i have granny's ointment...the cooling effect manage to soothe my poor back...

So handicap without the car...gotta stay home tiz weeked liao...sianz...
Luckily there is a supermarket nearby...but have to walk there in the cold weather...sianzx2...

Last nite called my beloved LJ...wishing her happy birthday...i'm so happy to hear her voice...its been a long time we chatted on skype...well...understand she's very bz with work...poor gal...gotta work on her birthday...n away from home in Muar...bt still...at least she have a few nice colleagues to celebrate with her...anyway, im sure i made her day with my call...hehe...!
Kinda envy her oso...having a progressive career...n a nice boss...wonder when i can be back to the workforce after having baby...miss working...bt well...its nice to be hm too...
At least dun have to see other pple's "face color"...

Everyday...i can feel my tummy getting harder and harder...baby's kicks seems stronger n stronger...sometimes it hurts as he pushes against my stomach muscles...
But still, its a wonderful feeling that is a priviledge to all mothers...really amazing to have a life within me...

No matter how much informatinon i read...i still fear the labor process...its seems easy yet complicated...i can already visualize myself with the baby crying at the top of his lungs...
and i'm flipping reference books looking for a solution...i cant let dat happen rite?!?!
Poor boy...

10 more weeks ! 70 more days !

Every week i will receive an email from Baby Center counting down to my due date...
Oli left with 10 weeks to cuddle baby ding...! :P And i haven decided on his name yet! OMG!
Everyday seems to pass on so fast...there seems to be more and more to do...and i feel lost!?!?!

As motherhood draws closer to me...i cant help but feel the pressure...i'm still a child...how do i be a mother? It dawn on me that it has not been easy for my OWN mother all these years too...
Since i'm not an academic kid since young...always getting into trouble...do tings without proper planning...lazy and vain...always tink about the shortcuts in life...which has resulted me in going thru so much unnecessary paths...which my mum DID warn me about...but still, i grew from these experiences...

Now is my turn...can i do a better job? or will i do a worse job? no one knows for sure now...
Time will tell...i jus pray for guidance and wisdom from GOD...

No matter how, i still look forward to the arrival of my baby...coz he is the only thing i OWN in this world...n i do cherish him...as much as the other love of my life...Mr Ding...

Outing with Rita...

Sometime in June...met up with hubby's fren Rita from Edmonton...She came to Calgary with some frens over the long weekend for leisure...
Haiz...when can i also go to Edmonton...which is only 3 hrs drive away...

Since then...it has been 2 months that i really enjoyed myself here...everytime we go out...its always to the supermarkets for replenishment of groceries and home supplies...
Well...there were a few times hubby bring me to shopping malls...bt still...different...
missed the entertainment back in SIN...movies wih frens, chats at cafe, KTV, nightspots, beach...argh....~~~

Back to reality...i still had fun anyway...we had dinner at a Korean restaurant...followed by walk by the Bow River...den went to downtown for drinks at a Jazz Pub...quite good though....
Different lifestyle here...not bad to have a change for awhile too...


Below is pic of The Bow River, 623 kilometres in length, flows through Banff National Park, one of the most famous and most visited nature reserves in the world. It forms the heart of the city of Calgary, home to one million people and the commercial and cultural centre of southern Alberta. Its currents are rocky and fast flowing...

Rita, hubby and me!

At the Jazz Pub

Map of Downtown Calgary

Stephen Ave @ Downtown

Late Supper...Deep thoughts...No regrets...

Jus finished a HK movie with hubby..."FLASHPOINT" featuring Louis Koo...quite nice...n very action packed...

About to go to sleep liao...den...suddenly...my stomach Growl~~~....was quite lazy to get up since so comfy in bed with hubby ald...bt tinking baby could be hungry oso...coz he cant sleep too...so late still doing somersaults in my tummy...
So...as im having my bread n raspberry yougurt...i'm blogging too...

Today is also my 6 mths wedding anniversary...to be exact...3rd Sept 2007...time flies...
i am already Mrs Ding for 6 mths liao...n in another 10 weeks...i'll b Mummy Ding...yet still so childish...

Year 2007...is really a turning point of my life...everything jus changed...my lifestyle...my environment...my status...as i am still learning the roles of a wife...i also need to learn the role as a mother...which is more challenging...i know its nt going to be easy...n its really time for me to grow up...stretch my wings n fly...no more shouting to mum n dad for help...
But i have no regrets of my decisions watsoever...n i'm eager to walk thru with the man i Love..no matter how hard life will be...coz Mr Ding is the best gift GOD has blessed me with...
and now...HE gave me a bonus...Baby Ding...i know i'm really blessed...n i really cherish every moment of my life nw...

I used to think happiness comes from $ and materials...bt i still feel so joyful everyday even though i'm not having a luxurious life as i dream to have...n i'm very grateful for my family in Singapore...for being so supportive of me...n frens...who never stop encouraging me...

Here is me n hubby @ BOW RIVER...some time in June...it was 9.00 PM and the sun still so bright...well its summer anyway...
Behind us at the opposite side of the river is DOWNTOWN...u can called it CBD...or town area...

Car Accident!

Wat a rough weekend man...
All because of a stupid driver...spoil my plans for the long weekend...Damn!

We were only 5 mins away from home on the way to watch baseball game @ Foothills Stadium...

DuNo wat the Fxxx he tinking when he sit behind the wheel...

We were definitely nt in his blind spot...or rather...we are ahead of him...

The car in front of him E-brake...den he wanted to avoid dat car n swerve to the right n bump us off the road...in split seconds....ARgGhHhhh~~~ we were heading towards the trees and hit a pole b4 coming to a stop...!

At dat moment, all i could tnk was is my baby okie? I was in shock n shivering all over...stop breathing for a few secs den hubby ask Am I Okay?

There was 2 kind passerbys who came n ask are we alrite...
den after calling 911...within 5 mins...police came...den fire engine...n ambulance...
Seeing im preggy...the good looking medic check my blood pressure n tummy...
asking do i feel pain anywhere...n ask if i want to follow them to ER...
after considering...i prefer to see my gynae instead...coz ambulance trip nt cheap leh...
So i sat quietly in the car while hubby makes his statement with the police...i talk to baby and ask is he alrite...after a few mins...he respond with a kick...n Man! was i relieved!
Must get claims for making my boi boi in shock...

Wat a scene...Many cars kaypo n slow down to see wat happen...tot tiz oli happen in SIN...
its after all human nature to be curious lah...

Here is a pic of our injured car...Poor thing...due to holiday on Mon, can oli seek treatment on Tues...hang in there Old pal!


Even the signal light is gone...cant even find it at the scene...tink its been crashed to pieces liao...

Poor hubby...have to take bus to work on Tues...which means...i can sleep longer...haha!