Weather: Rain -1°C
Like a ferris wheel...turn and turn and turn...jus like my life nw...every week is the same same same pattern...boring is the oli word to describe my days...
Everyday the only thing my brain needs to process is to tell hubby wat to cook for dinner...it sounds simple...bt its actually a very stressful and troublesome question...there are days that i really dunno wat to eat...bt i cant dun eat...my baby needs nutrients...so i also cant satisfy my hunger with a few biscuits and fruits...which i used to do...
Lately the oli thing that amuse me is the wave on my tummy and pain in my ribs created by my precious boy...as the days draw nearer...hubby and i look forward to seeing him...we are so curious who he will look more like...daddy or mummy....well...i'm sure he will be a good looking kid...coz his parents both are beautiful pple...dun laugh...every parents think tiz way...
After the ultrasound last thursday, i know baby's position in my tummy...so sometimes i will soothe his butt which is on my left side...den he seems to enjoy dat...he will stop his vigorous kicks on my right ribs ware his legs are facing...i feel we can already start bonding nw...which is really amazing...! i hope he will recognize my voice when he is born...coz i always talk to him...n stupid hubby will laugh at me...wat does he know man...nvm...i know he is jus jealous...
I jus finished reading my aqua's blog...glad she enjoyed her weekend after a worst hit...but i also know she is jus drowning her sorrows in drinks though she always appear happy to others...i really wish there is stg i can do to help...bt since it concerns matters of the heart, i can oli give her emotional support n listening ear...she is working so hard and dunno how to take care her own health...she is still living in the past and duwan to walk out of the dark...i oli have ONE wish for her...love urself abit more can?! u deserve more than wat ur getting nw...ur a rare gem...
As i'm ending tiz post...hubby jus ask me the deadly qn...dear, wat u want for dinner tonite?
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
56 Days to Go ! ! !
Weather: Cloudy, 8°C
Today jus went for my 32nd week ultrasound scan...so happy to see my baby again after sooo long...since week 18 in singapore...sob ~~~
Baby's head is down already and weighs ard 4 lbs (2.29 Kgs)...he is facing my right side, which explains y the right side of my rib cage hurts when he kicks...doc says he is running out of space inside me...so when he moves...i will see a huge wave along my tummy...so fun...!
sometimes hubby n i will guess its his little hands or elbow or knees or feet creating the wave...
When doc show me his face...i could see his little nose n lips...soooo cute! i tink he will look like daddy coz he has quite deep eye sockets...mummy face is too flat!
I could also see his little heart pumping fast at a fetal's normal rate of 150 beats per min...den also saw his lungs already developing and practise breathing...
Thank GOD that baby is developing and growing well...i will patiently wait 56 days for his arrival...
It was drizzling when i came home...the air is cold n dry...makes my nose painful when i breathe...found some blood trail when i cleared my nose...damn!
Now is almost 5 pm and i need to go out and pick hubby home from work...so happy to see the clouds have cleared and the sun is out...and baby is moving actively...seems like he also knows we are going to fetch daddy hm....
Today jus went for my 32nd week ultrasound scan...so happy to see my baby again after sooo long...since week 18 in singapore...sob ~~~
Baby's head is down already and weighs ard 4 lbs (2.29 Kgs)...he is facing my right side, which explains y the right side of my rib cage hurts when he kicks...doc says he is running out of space inside me...so when he moves...i will see a huge wave along my tummy...so fun...!
sometimes hubby n i will guess its his little hands or elbow or knees or feet creating the wave...
When doc show me his face...i could see his little nose n lips...soooo cute! i tink he will look like daddy coz he has quite deep eye sockets...mummy face is too flat!
I could also see his little heart pumping fast at a fetal's normal rate of 150 beats per min...den also saw his lungs already developing and practise breathing...
Thank GOD that baby is developing and growing well...i will patiently wait 56 days for his arrival...
It was drizzling when i came home...the air is cold n dry...makes my nose painful when i breathe...found some blood trail when i cleared my nose...damn!
Now is almost 5 pm and i need to go out and pick hubby home from work...so happy to see the clouds have cleared and the sun is out...and baby is moving actively...seems like he also knows we are going to fetch daddy hm....
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Snow! Ware?!
Weather: Cloudy, 2°C
Hubby jus called me...say it was snowing lightly at his office area...i got so excited dat i nearly trip myself while climbing the stairs to get outside the house...since i have never seen snow in my entire life...! to my disappointment...its not snowing here...bt its freezing cold out there man...
well...i shall wait den...since weather is turning cold ald...i guess when winter comes...it will get so cold dat i hate snow... haha!
long time no blog...busy with settling the car and insurance stuffs...so tiring man...hope can settle everything within this week...den my life will get back to normal...
now i cant tahan travelling in the car for too long...will get kinda restless and sleepy...but i wanna accompany hubby while he is driving...so i cant sleep! den i jus eat n eat lor...
last nite hubby told me his boss will send him to Airdrie for a 6 week project...damn! is there a better time for dat?! i'm so worried when baby comes...hubby cant be with me...so sad... :(
next year if hubby have a chance to take up the Toronto project...i want to go also!!!
Hubby jus called me...say it was snowing lightly at his office area...i got so excited dat i nearly trip myself while climbing the stairs to get outside the house...since i have never seen snow in my entire life...! to my disappointment...its not snowing here...bt its freezing cold out there man...
well...i shall wait den...since weather is turning cold ald...i guess when winter comes...it will get so cold dat i hate snow... haha!
long time no blog...busy with settling the car and insurance stuffs...so tiring man...hope can settle everything within this week...den my life will get back to normal...
now i cant tahan travelling in the car for too long...will get kinda restless and sleepy...but i wanna accompany hubby while he is driving...so i cant sleep! den i jus eat n eat lor...
last nite hubby told me his boss will send him to Airdrie for a 6 week project...damn! is there a better time for dat?! i'm so worried when baby comes...hubby cant be with me...so sad... :(
next year if hubby have a chance to take up the Toronto project...i want to go also!!!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Feel so so so miserable...
Lately i can never find a comfy position...be it sitting on the sofa...or lying on the bed...my back is always aching...and even bathing is a chore for me...though hubby is so sweet and offered to shower me...but...i feel so unattractive nw...
Esp last nite...felt a sharp pain all over my lower abs...as if baby is pushing my muscles outwards with all his strength...at first i tot it was a crampy feeling...really scared the shit outta me...
Baby cant be ready to be born nw...! im jus tinking too much...
Always have dreams that baby is born already...n caring for baby dun seems as difficult as i tot it would be...well...im dreaming...i know...bt still i'm looking forward to the transition period of me from a lazy, childish and sloppy person to a dilligent and responsible mother...
At the same time...i hope i can still play the role of a wife to my dearest man...bt well...he'll understand...afterall...baby is the fruit of our love....(silly smile~~~)
Esp last nite...felt a sharp pain all over my lower abs...as if baby is pushing my muscles outwards with all his strength...at first i tot it was a crampy feeling...really scared the shit outta me...
Baby cant be ready to be born nw...! im jus tinking too much...
Always have dreams that baby is born already...n caring for baby dun seems as difficult as i tot it would be...well...im dreaming...i know...bt still i'm looking forward to the transition period of me from a lazy, childish and sloppy person to a dilligent and responsible mother...
At the same time...i hope i can still play the role of a wife to my dearest man...bt well...he'll understand...afterall...baby is the fruit of our love....(silly smile~~~)
Monday, September 10, 2007
Early Morning Blog...
Yawnz...~~~ :o
Slept @ 3 AM last nite...tiz morning kena woken up by a call from my auto insurance agent @ 7.30 AM...sickening...now cant get back to sleep liao coz my tummy growling though i AM sleepy...
Anyway i'm in a good mood...so i can do away with some sleep...
Jus read an email from my Mummy...sent an hr ago...she has confirmed that she will be coming to visit me during my confinement month...with another fren too...Thank GOD for them! I oli ask for help...He gives me helpx2 ! With 2 extra pair of helping hands, i'm sure i can pull through the first few weeks with baby around and restore my own health...
This is the power of prayer...with FAITH...GOD ALWAYS exceeds our expectations...yet we ALWAYS fail to meet HIS...but HE still LOVES us...so we should NEVER STOP trusting...
Though my mum and i were not always on the close end of the relationship...though we do not communicate as often and as well as i hope we can...but after all...she is my mum...who also went thru wat im going thru nw to have me...so i guess ONLY she is willing to put down everything on her hands now and travel so far jus to be with me during the most important time of my life...its really touching to feel her great motherly love for me...which i always tink its never there...but jus becoz she dun show it...does not mean she dun feel dat way for me...
I think i'm jus being shelfish...coz i also do not show my love for her too...and yet have expectations of her...now that i'm going to be a mother too, i finally understand my own mother...n how it has not been easy for her ALL these years...afterall when she had me, it was her first time as a mother...how well u tink she can perform?!
Now i also have to juggle the roles of a daughter...a wife...a mother...a daughter-in-law...a granddaughter...a niece...an older sister...its really not easy to perform all roles well...So i continuously seek GOD's guidance and wisdom...hoping i can perform better than my own mum...
I can proudly and confidently say i have a better husband than my mum...n I'm really glad and contented that i have such a good husband...he takes care of me and always put me before himself...always leave the good food to me and cant bear to eat them himself...how many man out there are willing to cook everyday for their wife who is not working and staying hm? He also never force me to learn unlike my past ex bfs...or rather when i want him to teach me the roles, he jus shush me away say " u learn for wat?! wait u scald and cut urself...i'm more busy eh..."
well...it actually sounds romantic to me though...coz i know he has my interests at heart...he knows i hate handling raw foods and standing in front of the fire...
I wish there is a way to tell him how much i appreciate him...how much i love him...
how lucky i feel...though there are times we quarrel, bt those were constructive...it jus made us understand each other better...
Slept @ 3 AM last nite...tiz morning kena woken up by a call from my auto insurance agent @ 7.30 AM...sickening...now cant get back to sleep liao coz my tummy growling though i AM sleepy...
Anyway i'm in a good mood...so i can do away with some sleep...
Jus read an email from my Mummy...sent an hr ago...she has confirmed that she will be coming to visit me during my confinement month...with another fren too...Thank GOD for them! I oli ask for help...He gives me helpx2 ! With 2 extra pair of helping hands, i'm sure i can pull through the first few weeks with baby around and restore my own health...
This is the power of prayer...with FAITH...GOD ALWAYS exceeds our expectations...yet we ALWAYS fail to meet HIS...but HE still LOVES us...so we should NEVER STOP trusting...
Though my mum and i were not always on the close end of the relationship...though we do not communicate as often and as well as i hope we can...but after all...she is my mum...who also went thru wat im going thru nw to have me...so i guess ONLY she is willing to put down everything on her hands now and travel so far jus to be with me during the most important time of my life...its really touching to feel her great motherly love for me...which i always tink its never there...but jus becoz she dun show it...does not mean she dun feel dat way for me...
I think i'm jus being shelfish...coz i also do not show my love for her too...and yet have expectations of her...now that i'm going to be a mother too, i finally understand my own mother...n how it has not been easy for her ALL these years...afterall when she had me, it was her first time as a mother...how well u tink she can perform?!
Now i also have to juggle the roles of a daughter...a wife...a mother...a daughter-in-law...a granddaughter...a niece...an older sister...its really not easy to perform all roles well...So i continuously seek GOD's guidance and wisdom...hoping i can perform better than my own mum...
I can proudly and confidently say i have a better husband than my mum...n I'm really glad and contented that i have such a good husband...he takes care of me and always put me before himself...always leave the good food to me and cant bear to eat them himself...how many man out there are willing to cook everyday for their wife who is not working and staying hm? He also never force me to learn unlike my past ex bfs...or rather when i want him to teach me the roles, he jus shush me away say " u learn for wat?! wait u scald and cut urself...i'm more busy eh..."
well...it actually sounds romantic to me though...coz i know he has my interests at heart...he knows i hate handling raw foods and standing in front of the fire...
I wish there is a way to tell him how much i appreciate him...how much i love him...
how lucky i feel...though there are times we quarrel, bt those were constructive...it jus made us understand each other better...
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Cold and Boring Day... ~~~
Woke up tiz morning...seeing no sun and dark skies...makes me feel so gloomy...
Worst still...had a bad back ache thru out the nite...cant sleep well...sickening hubby...sleep like PIG! cant even wake him up to massage for me...luckily i have granny's ointment...the cooling effect manage to soothe my poor back...
So handicap without the car...gotta stay home tiz weeked liao...sianz...
Luckily there is a supermarket nearby...but have to walk there in the cold weather...sianzx2...
Last nite called my beloved LJ...wishing her happy birthday...i'm so happy to hear her voice...its been a long time we chatted on skype...well...understand she's very bz with work...poor gal...gotta work on her birthday...n away from home in Muar...bt still...at least she have a few nice colleagues to celebrate with her...anyway, im sure i made her day with my call...hehe...!
Kinda envy her oso...having a progressive career...n a nice boss...wonder when i can be back to the workforce after having baby...miss working...bt well...its nice to be hm too...
At least dun have to see other pple's "face color"...
Everyday...i can feel my tummy getting harder and harder...baby's kicks seems stronger n stronger...sometimes it hurts as he pushes against my stomach muscles...
But still, its a wonderful feeling that is a priviledge to all mothers...really amazing to have a life within me...
No matter how much informatinon i read...i still fear the labor process...its seems easy yet complicated...i can already visualize myself with the baby crying at the top of his lungs...
and i'm flipping reference books looking for a solution...i cant let dat happen rite?!?!
Poor boy...
Worst still...had a bad back ache thru out the nite...cant sleep well...sickening hubby...sleep like PIG! cant even wake him up to massage for me...luckily i have granny's ointment...the cooling effect manage to soothe my poor back...
So handicap without the car...gotta stay home tiz weeked liao...sianz...
Luckily there is a supermarket nearby...but have to walk there in the cold weather...sianzx2...
Last nite called my beloved LJ...wishing her happy birthday...i'm so happy to hear her voice...its been a long time we chatted on skype...well...understand she's very bz with work...poor gal...gotta work on her birthday...n away from home in Muar...bt still...at least she have a few nice colleagues to celebrate with her...anyway, im sure i made her day with my call...hehe...!
Kinda envy her oso...having a progressive career...n a nice boss...wonder when i can be back to the workforce after having baby...miss working...bt well...its nice to be hm too...
At least dun have to see other pple's "face color"...
Everyday...i can feel my tummy getting harder and harder...baby's kicks seems stronger n stronger...sometimes it hurts as he pushes against my stomach muscles...
But still, its a wonderful feeling that is a priviledge to all mothers...really amazing to have a life within me...
No matter how much informatinon i read...i still fear the labor process...its seems easy yet complicated...i can already visualize myself with the baby crying at the top of his lungs...
and i'm flipping reference books looking for a solution...i cant let dat happen rite?!?!
Poor boy...
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