Grandma is finally here...!

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Time flies...the long awaited trip finally took off! My mummy will arrive today in Calgary...and will spend the next 2 mths here with me...! How i wish my beloved sista can b here too...really miss her...Anyway im contented and grateful towards my mum...its not easy for her to travel such a long distance here and commit 2 mths jus for me...I'm really glad she can be here with me during the most important moment of my life...having a baby is really the biggest event of our lives...he is a new member to our family...and we are all curious hw he looks like...wat he will grow up to be...I hope baby will take after his daddy's good traits...and none abit like his grandfather...

Other than being excited to see my mum after so long...i'm also excited to see wat she has packed for me...keke...excess baggage of 20 over kgs...wow! dats really alot of stuff she's bringing for me...

I'm thinking...after the long trip...can she still recognize me with my bulging tummy...? hehe...i hope we can all get along well...mum n her fren with hubby n me...

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@ 39 Weeks ! ! !

Yesterday went to see the gynae...seems like baby is not growing much...so doc arrange for me to go for ultrasound tmr morning...kinda worried...n his heartbeat was only 130 beats / min...which is lower than his normal 150 beats / min...bt after checking the internet i am more assured that this is normal...

The normal rate is generally considered to be between 120 and 160 beats per minute.

• The rates are typically higher (140-160) in early pregnancy, and lower (120-140) toward the end of pregnancy.
• Past term, some normal fetal heart rates fall to 110 BPM.
• There is no correlation between heart rate and the gender of the fetus.

Doc checked my cervix and said baby is quite low...and in a posterior position...i hope he will turn and cooperate when labor is here...
Ever since 32 weeks...i can finally see my baby again on the ultrasound screen...hope baby is doing fine...very soon...we'll meet...hang in there darius...mummy is here with u...

White Sunday Morning...

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It snowed heavily again on Sat nite...I woke up to a beautifully white Sunday morning...the snow on the ground was almost 2 inches thick! Changed to long pants and put on my coat...went outside to satisfy my "sua ku - ness"...hehe...

Saw hubby shoving snow away from the pavement coz he's afraid i will slip n fall...awww...so sweet...bt i step onto the grass to "play" and made foot prints on the snow...only to get scolding from him...hee...



The car was covered in snow...like icing on a piece of blackforest cake...yummy...! So hubby have to brush the snow off the car too...looks fun! so i also tried but instead, i shove the snow flakes towards him! haha...so fun...! end up we were making snow balls and throwing at each other...chasing ard the car...so fun! dat was my first time playing with real snow...!







How i wish my beloved sista can b here with me...i remember when i was 16, mum brought us to korea for holiday...bt the snow at the ski resort was partially man made snow...but still we both had fun throwing snow at each other... :P

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Playing the Waiting Game...

After experiencing an hour of painful contractions last Wed...i managed to have a few peaceful days until yesterday when i was out shopping for TV with hubby...contractions came! Made me no mood for browsing...in the end we did not buy anything...

After braving the cold wind and getting into the car...nice and warm...it subsided and i felt better...upon reaching home contractions attack me again...lie in bed for awhile and it subsided...
Baby...hang in there okie...? Grandma will be here soon...

As i'm blogging now...i ald experience contractions twice...! Knowing the fact dat i only need to play another week of waiting game...im really nervous and excited...at the same time worried...
He has been part of me for the past 39 weeks...can i handle him as an individual? will he dislike me? can we bond? how does he look like? so much to think about...

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Never enough...

Everyday looking at baby's crib...playing with his mobile...it always occurred to me dat am i missing some things? should i get more hats? more blankets? more clothes? more diapers? more toys? mayb coz i feel bad dat some stuffs are hand-me-downs...though many people say babies grow very fast...dun need to buy so many new clothes...they outgrow b4 they wear each piece for 10 times...but its natural dat every parents want the best for their child...

Since i'm not working now...i cant afford the best toys or clothes for him now...but i'm sure i will make it up to him in future...i believe providing him a loving family to grow up is more important than materials...i rather save up for his education and bring him for holidays than buying him new baby clothes which he dun even know if they are new or old...as long as they keep him warm n comfy...

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Sorry hubby...i love u...

Last night...i caused hubby to drop his pc and now he has to reformat everything...all his data were gone! i feel so bad...y did i threw temper at him? he did nothing wrong! y cant i learn self control? y must i flare up at such a petty issue? y m i so rash? y m i still so childish!? i hate myself! I have such bad character...yet GOD blessed me with such a good husband...do i deserve him? i duno...but i'm sure he dun deserve such a wilful wife like me...i must change! but how...? i know if this go on for years...he will surely lose his patience with me...mayb i should sign up for anger management class...

I hope tiz is due to hormonal imbalance in me like my sista said since i'm preggy...after my body resumes to normal operation...hope everyting will improve...
But still...i really appreciate his patience with me...

When i'm hungry...he cooks for me...
When i'm tired...he lends me a shoulder to lay on...
When i throw tantrums...he patiently calms me down...
When i'm cold...he warms me with his love...
When i'm depressed...he cheers me up...

Hubby...i loVe u...ur the one dat i need for all times...

On Halloween Nite...

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Last nite while i was having dinner...i experienced a few terrible contractions...they were about 10 mins apart and lasted almost 3 mins...when it subsided, hubby ask me faster finish my dinner...in case shd i really go into labor, i will feel hungry...at dat moment...duno want to laugh or cry eh...

Took a few mouth of rice...contractions peaked...walk around for awhile...it subsided...return to the dinner table...eat abit more...contractions peaked again...went to bed n lie for a while...it subsided...quickly finish up my dinner...wanted to wash dishes...contractions peaked again...kaoz...! i also did realise the contractions become stronger n stronger...i was really worried dat i will go into labor...n yet hubby happily talking to himself...yeah tmr no need work...sickening...!

I kept telling baby...hang in there for jus one more week pls pls pls...at least when grandma is here...else mummy will b at a lost...another reason was also i dun wish to miss the birthing class tonite...hehe...

I was gald i could sleep thru'out the nite without any contractions...but woke up tiz morning with a sharp pain near my bladder...luckily i felt better after emptying it...
I'm happy that my day so far is smooth sailing...hope it will continue tiz way over the weekend as i need to make final arrangements for my mum's arrival next week...wonder how's her packing now...

Halloween in SIN is jus about partying, clubbing, drinking and not everyone dress up...
But its an interesting practice here...kids will dress up in halloween suits and walk around the neighborhood with an empty bag...asking for candies and sweets...and if ur household has nothing to offier...remember to turn off ur porch lights...tiz way they will not knock on ur door...some people will hold halloween parties in their home and dress up their garden...hang 'ghosts' n skeletons on their trees and light up pumpkins along the door way...
As i drive thru the neighborhood...can really feel the atmosphere...
Also heard from hubby dat some of his colleagues even dress up in halloween costumes with bloody makeup and went to work...so fun!

Xiao Ding! Hang in there!

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jus passed the week 37 mark...! yeah...baby is full term now...finally i can stop worrying about pre term birth...bt i still wish baby will hang in till 11th Nov...or at least after grandma arrives on the 8th...dat way...daddy dun have to take too much leave...

For the past 1 week...i have been feeling those practice contractions...pain is bearable but alot of discomfort...though hubby wanted to practice wat he learnt at the birthing class and tried to massage me...i somehow pushed him away n asked to be left alone...curled in bed under the sheets for a few minutes...n was relieved they were gone...

I then monitored and realised i will experience such practise contractions once every 2 - 3 days...fortunately they will subside when i change position or walk ard...doc says my body is getting itself ready for labor...bt my brain is not ready yet! i'm not mentally prepared! Though i have been looking forward to the arrival of tiz baby thru'out the past 37 weeks...bt now dat i'm finally in the 'waiting period', i jus wished for a few more months to get prepared...i tink i'm still not ready to b a mom...n sickening hubby says when baby arrives...he will b busy taking care of 2 kids...chey!~~~

Over the weekend...daddy jus fixed baby's crib n car seat...den i also mounted the Fisher Price mobile onto the crib...its a gift from my 1st fren in calgary...other than having music n turns...it also have stars n moon dat shines onto the ceiling...beautiful ! Even hubby enjoy playing with it b4 he goes to sleep...haha...have to scold him to switch off n nt waste battery...haiz!

Finally after 3 attempts...hubby passed his road test and gotten his Class 5 Advance driving license...yeah! But still he needs more practise on the road...to improve on his judgement...
At least its one thing down from our long to-do list...

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Summer has passed...Autumn is almost gone...Winter is coming...

2 Weeks ago...the tree at my doorstep still has the beautiful red / orange leaves on them...now...its completely botak!

For the first time in my LIFE, i saw falling snow on 24th Oct...at nite...though under the street lamps they look like heavy rain...bt the ground is all white...n it was not very cold actually...quite comfortable jus wearing my MNG sweater...

But then...the next morning...it was bitterly cold...n the backyard was covered in snow...so nice! as i was snapping pics of the scene, i made sure the neighbors were not looking at my silly actions...hehe...

After 2 days...the snow melted completely...n weather now is great...very comfortable...

Except in the morning when the sun is still not out yet...earth is still not warmed up...

As we approach winter...days are shorter n longer nights...like tiz morning...8 am sun looks like 6 am in sin...n since we live in the west...we dun have much sun on our side bt rather...i can still see the moon from the bedroom window...kinda wierd...hehe...By the time hubby knocks off from work...at ard 6 pm...the skies are dark like 8 pm in sin... makes me feel so sleepy ald...

After such a long blog...i tink i need a nap now...ZZzzzzzZZZzzz

Anytime soon...~~~

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Congrats to Emy...on the arrival of baby Jayden! He is sooo cute! But poor emy...suffering from the pain n tiredness after labor...Not easy to b mummy...

After reading her birth story...makes me kinda freaky about looking forward to my own labor experience...wonder how long i will take...wonder how i handle the pain...or rather...i dun tink i will even handle it...jus raise the white flag for Epi...But i kinda envy her...labor hours were not really long...12 hours and baby's out...!

Emy is my 1st n oli preggy fren...intro by my aqua...thru out the preggy days...she has teached me alot and guide me on wat to eat...wat to do...wat to prepare...its really nice to have someone share the experience with u...makes me feel more assured n confident...though we have not met...but i can feel she is really a nice person...

Time flies really fast...now dat her baby's out...its gonna be my turn anytime soon...i jus wish my mum will be here first b4 baby arrives...coz i tink i will be at a lost when baby's home...esp when hubby n me both have no experience...i can only pray that GOD will give me the guidance i need to care for baby...n HE knows when is the best time for baby to arrive...so meantime...i try (very hard) to relax then...

3 Weeks & 5 Days...

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Jus went for my 3rd birthing class last nite...n had a wonderful surprise...the couple dat did not show up for last week's class actually had their baby last thursday...! She is sooooo cuuute.... And poor girl...become a display for everyone as the instructor showed us how her belly button looks like...(of coz with permission from the proud parents)...She was supposed to be due on 14th Nov...but born premature @ 35 Weeks...n become a Oct baby...

Becoz she is premature...she look abit jaundice and her cries weren't dat loud...like a kitten...hehe...bt she looks strong and mommy looks fresh and "free" without the tummy...Mayb coz she is Ang Moh...so they tend to be stronger than asians...Seeing mommy cuddling the baby...they look so blessed and makes me look forward to my own labor...

Wonder hw is emy now...is she cuddling jayden already...? how nice...

Yesterday was also my Week 36 checkup at gynae...i'm 63 KGS !!! OMG! Dats a 15 Kgs gain thruout my preggy days...Doc did a Group B test swab on me...hope to have negative results next week....so that i dun need to be on antibiotics during labor...

In exactly 3 Weeks...my mum will be here...wonder will baby wait for grandma to b here first...bt i look forward more to baby's arrival than mum...hehe...still...i wish he will b born on 11th Nov...coz its a nice date...

Till now...we still have not really decided on baby's name yet...haiz...y so hard to decide...

Ever since my last blog...

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Autumn is here...the tree at my doorstep jus turned from green to yellow to red...really beautiful...i might sound silly here...bt all my life in SIN i have oli seen GREEN trees...

It's been a loooong time since i have a post on my blog...wat have i been doing for the past 3 weeks...? i also duno...other than the number of days to the arrival of my baby changes everyday...every thing else seems the same...

Well...y do i suddenly have the urge to blog today? coz my lovely aqua created a new blogskin for me...which i luuuuvvv it! and it manage to kickstart my brains n fingers to start working on the keyboard...

Its really a wonderful "ding" to see my tummy doing the kallang roar every now n then...frm left to right...ole ole ole ole...ole...ole...haha...muz b my hubby crazily tinking abt playing soccer with bb liao...he already bought those rubber balls...n start playing by himself...sometimes i will join him...haha...imagine the silly sight...both of us chasing after the small rubber ball...

Okie...let me flip thru my organizer n see wat i have been up to the past 3 weeks...

Week starting 24th Sept...
Finally received the cheque from insurance company for the payout of our damaged Odyssey...
and decided to buy the black 2001 Mazda MPV which we both like...though there were a few problems here n there...we managed to fix them...afterall its a second hand car...hw good u expect it to be...jus need to change the tires for winter use...
Received the MPV on Friday...n life is finally back to normal...coz the past week without car has been hell...so handicapped and limited...

As usual at my week 33 checkup...doc says the same ting...blood pressure normal...baby is doing fine...normal fetal heartbeat...blah blah blah...

Week starting 1st Oct...
Felt some problems with the car's steering wheel...which kept pulling to the right...went back to dealer...and they ask me to send the car to their mechanic...who diagnosed dat the car needed wheel alignment...so i drop the car there on wed morning and had to take bus n train hm...wat a long way man...took me an hour to reach hm...coz there is no straight bus...i had to take bus to train station den train to downtown...den bus hm...waiting for bus in dat darn cold weather is hell...it made me miss the time i waited for MRT at Tampines Station...holding a piece of tissue wiping my sweat n swearing at the train for taking so long to arrive...Though it oli takes mins for the train to arrive...its enuf for me to melt there...
But still...I really appreciate n realise that the public transport in SIN is really really fantastic & efficient !!!

I'm glad we managed to collect the car in time to attend the first lesson of Birth and Babies 2007 @ Alberta Children's Hospital...its a prenatal lesson which i paid CAD 185...so i definitely cant afford to miss one lesson...
The class consist of 9 couples...all EDD sometime in Nov...though i do not have the last EDD in Nov...i have the smallest tummy there...anyway first lesson was quite informational...we learnt how to differentiate Braxton Hicks n real labor contractions...n wat to bring to hospital...when to go...n warning signs...n the instructor showed us a visual effect of hw the baby will progress thru the pelvic bones to the birth canal n out in tiz world...seems like a long way though...
From wat she says...my baby is in a good position for natural birth...hope he does not play too much with the umblical cord dat tangles ard him so much dat natural birth is out of question...

Weekend went to bottle depot to deposit all the plastic bottles for recycling...finally clear the kitchen area...since it was still early...we went to Sears to shop for sales stuff...n bought a quilt set and mattress pad for mum...

Week starting 8th Oct...
Its Thanksgiving Day! We did not have much of a celebration...since jus the two of us...but i'm glad hubby can be home with me...so we spent the day watching movies and enjoying each other's company...

Tues went for a Budgeting for Baby seminar...learnt abt the practice here on registering baby's birth...getting health insurance and social insurance number (SIN)...and how to apply for govt perks...etc...

Wed went for my Week 35 checkup...as usual...everyting was good...all is normal...but doc sent me for urine test next week...

Thurs as usual...attend Birth and Babies class...watch a birth video which was quite traumatising for me...bt i felt a surge of joy n relieve when i saw the baby was finally out...i wonder wat my birth experience will be...hope i can b like my mum...have a short labor...though doc says there is no scientific proof dat it will be related...

Weekend as always...we went for grocery shopping...
n hubby made me a delicious dish...which was really good considering his first time doing them...Chicken with Sesame n Ginger wine...i love it! He is so talented...even with a recipe i dun tink i can make it...he saw me enjoying it so much...he oli took a bit or two...n let me finish it all...i'm so touched...he say good food leave for baby n me...he will finish the overnite dish...

i always knew he puts us before himself...in everything he does...i know i mentioned too many times liao...bt i have to remind myself how blessed i am...though we have our share of quarrels and arguements...bt i'm confident he is true to me...
sometimes i find him childish also...n nt thoughtful enuf...bt den again...who is perfect...? he never expect so much of me...wat makes me expect more from him when he has given me so much?

Week Starting 15th Oct...(This week !)

As of today...it will be 4 weeks & 1 day to the arrival of God's next greatest creation...my boy...i will also be starting my weekly checkups till labor...
Baby...hang in there alrite...? Week 37 is jus around the corner...Dun b too anxious to see mummy...though mummy is anxious too...so u mus b patient...okie...i know its getting really cramp in there...bt jus endure...mummy is with u...

Wonder hw emy is doing...never see her online over the weekend...is she in labor yet? or baby jayden is born liao?! Emy....jia you! jia you! u can do it!