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1st valentine's day with hubby tiz year...wat a v-day...jus like any other day at home...
Is marriage really the graveyard of love?! Does signing on the dotted line means no more romance...? No more courtship?! Why wasn't i told earlier...?!
Well, to make myself feel better...i try to stay positive...Darius is still young...we are in a different situation now being in Calgary alone...our current goal is to make $$$ n have a family...
but does dat mean we lose excitement in life ? y do i feel so lethargic n dead? soulless...i dun wish to be the woman who lose herself to family n kids...i'm starting to hate these special days...
y m i so contradicting...? i look forward to have my own career n my own life back...at the same time i dun wish Darius to grow so fast...coz dat would mean he will b independent one day n leave me...
when i was younger (n i'm still young nw...) i look fwd to have my own family n even planned to stay home to look after my kids n watch them grow for the 1st few years...i thank GOD for blessing me with tiz opportunity nw...yet at the same time y am i complaining of nt having a life?! humans are never contented...haiz...
everytime when i fall into these depressing spells...i look at Darius...his little angelic face...his squeals n smiles...n wat a wonderful job i have done taking care of him...though its a 24/7 job, but the kinda satisfaction is no job can ever give me...
i can never forget the very 1st moment he was in my arms...the look on his face...as if telling me finally we meet after 40 weeks...as our eyes meet...den i know wat is love at first sight...
so...does v-day still mean anything to me nw? i duno...leave dat answer to my hubby...
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hApPy biRthDaY mY dAdDy !!!
mAy alL Ur wIshEs cOme tRue & bE bLesSed wIth gOod hEaLtH !!!
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