Jus Darius and Me...

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Yesterday my Mum left for Vancouver for holiday...and for the first time...its jus left me and Darius alone @ home...i felt a sudden sadness and helplessness...

Sad dat my mum is not with me...becoz i really enjoyed her company when she was here...Helpless without any help from my mum...

Coz usually in the morning when mum wakes up she will attend to crying Darius while i can have another precious hour of sleep...she will help to comfort him and soothe him to sleep after i nurse him...she will help to bathe him...she will help to change his diapers...she will also prepare meals for me... Now suddenly i have to do all these by myself...i feel so lost n alone...

But of coz i know dat she wont b here with me forever too...and the road to caring for Darius is a LONG LONG one...so its a matter of time i become independent...

Anyway i'm happy for her dat she get the chance to have fun in vancouver...coz she might not have chance in future to get such a long leave away from work...

I wonder how Emily is coping with Jayden...i kinda envy her dat she can get back to work soon in another month or so...but on the other hand i also cherished the chance to watch Darius grow in his first year of life...which is also the most important year...

Haiz...so contradicting...

Everytime we visit the doctor, the nurses will strip Darius down to weigh him...n he always scream n cry in protest...but seems like tiz time...he is in a good mood...he can even make faces @ the camera...

N listens attentively to Grandma speaking to him...